So, now that it’s been a couple of days.
I appreciate all the shoutouts for the clues. In the moment, it honestly feels a bit thankless. So, the fact that the fans look forward to them is nice. I also appreciate the sentiment behind highlighting the clues and “verifying” insiders.
That said, it’s also exhausting and, at times, extremely stressful. There are so many tightropes it requires me to walk—keeping sources safe, verifying that rumors are accurate, ensuring the clues themselves are solvable, trying to keep guesses from being so far off-base it muddies the clues completely—all while living a life completely separate from HHN and theme parks as a whole. And it is very separate. I rarely discuss the parks on social media or even at home. If I wanted it to be more, I’d post my clues through Twitter or write a blog. But this is a very compartmentalized escape for me. And sometimes, especially in the last couple of years, it’s felt less and less like an escape and more like a “requirement.” To an extent, the desire to draw more attention to my posts actually accentuate that feeling.
I started getting inside information in 2011, after a lifetime of following the event. At the time, speculation was a more stringent process. It was such that we could actually coordinate which insider would share which information, and the conversation around that information on the boards rarely strayed. But that was a long time ago. I’m the “last” of those insiders (they’re still around, but nowhere near as active), and sources have changed. And I’ve tried to stick around because I’m a vestige. While I do still get solid info directly, most of what I do now is cobble together information from people who are actually coming to me for verification.
Like Ringwraith said, sources change. Insiders change.
Things playing out like they did this year, works out though. I need a break from clues. From the stress. I have a lot going on in the real world this next year (or longer). I want to be able to throw out an idea about HHN without it becoming a “rumor” within hours.
Assuming I still get information, and if I have the energy for it, I may do clues again in the future. Maybe I won’t. HHN still holds a close place in my heart, for a myriad of reasons, but I just want to be a fan again.